Thursday, September 30, 2004
"Lord remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Reming me that my days are numbered, and that my life is fleeing away" -Psalm39:4 (NLT)

enduring

sometimes i would just hope that i'm in the middle of a busy street.. watching how people spend their time.. or, just plain lying on green pastures.. looking up the sky enjoying God's creation, looking at the blue blue sky, closing eyes and feeling the wind.. these few days.. i have been cooped in the 'cramped' lab.. that i din see any life anymore.. the life i'm living now just seem so so empty.. =( more than so countable times, i would prefer to be out of here thinking, cracking and solving my codes.. =( *wail*

Life? i think for me.. its actionscript, and when i'm home.. MSN? or other things, so tired till i just wan to rest my eyes on something soothing and not words.. yes, wad about QT? i did neglect it.. i think i miss alot of dates with God.. but when i was reading it last night, i realise.. Isaiah.. it speaks right to me..
Though we have read again and again.. remember, God word's or bible is like a multi faced diamond.. each angle is a special looking and degree of purity. yes, everytime we read the 'same' verse.. its not the same we had once read. it might speak to the current situations.. get it?
i just wanna rise my hands up high, shouting HALLELUYAH! =)

Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Love means living the way God commanded us to live. As you have heard from the beginning, his command is this: Live a life of Love


Panic!! why? Friday is the handing in of my proj prototype.. Kelvin had done with his drawings and eveyrthing.. its me.. again, scripting.. as i progress, it just get to hard for me to grasp the understanding.. *sigh* natural process.. nvm, i know i will still be ABLe to conquer.. i have faith that kelvin and i wil be the first and last batch to finish this proj.. yeah, glory glory.. *applause*

Was a little worried when pingfang claim she having heartache.. ya. serious matter, but she still insist to run even though her mum actually ask her to go home instead to run and swim.. hai. girls are just sometimes stubborn headed, it reflected on me.. had some sort of heart to heart talk to pf as well, as in she was telling me about her (green medicine) qin yaw? duno how to spell.. He's her ex.. telling me how they met and everything..i can sense she stil love him, as in when she was telling me the past, i can sense the joy in her speech.. the smiling just reminding her of the happy past.. sometimes, why dun the guys do something? cux mayB he's just enjoyin time with his fwens, that he dunno pf is actually waiting for him? *shrugx*

Had a good 6 rounds with pf, purposely ran behind her.. just in case her heart ache.. scary.. *cold sweat* aini joined is as well.. yeah, but her pants kept dropping, that she end up runnin one round.. swamp of people were in the stadium.. dragon boat people, touch rugby and those napfa people.. ha, the lecturers actually thought me and pf was one of them.. and he thought i was from the swimming team! ha, cux i was wearing the theresian swimming team shirt.. nah, i cant even tread water, how on earth will i be in swimming team.. got that shirt from peng in stc days. *grinx*

i was very very tempted to buy mooncake from yew tee. *bang wall* haa, the price drop! actullay, the tray was already on my hand.. and there i was thinking.. better not, i just ran.. dun waste my effort..learn from pf.. 'wo yao len qin' ops.. *wink* =) i have succumb my temptation, after all. =)


I miss my grandpa.. i miss my mooncake as well.. *wink* STOP IT!

Tuesday, September 28, 2004
*sTruggle*


" But when you ask him, be sure that you really expect him to answer, for a doubtful mind is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. " -James1:6- God Bless u people!



Today's is some sort of struggle.. reail struggle.. be it in work, emotions and also diet.. why struggle in work.. yest seems nothing was being done in lab.. was figuring out.. how should i go about doing the passing variable? asked jimmy for help.. but i know the logic! ok, nvm.. forget it.. *bang wall* while i'm figuring the idiotic part, the others in my lab is playing magic.. *faint*

i was very tempted to eat.. i'm seriously curbing diet.. ya.. i duno why, its just my mentality? or is it all girls mentality? *grinx* that i just wan to be happy to shed off those few kilos? ok ok, girls... had mooncake today again.. tianfu called it the 'mooncake fest' haa.. well, *shrugx* i wan to watch Resident Evil!! yeah! reali.. think have to save money first.. i'm declarin bankrupt soon.. nolah!! i stil have a RICH DADDy up there.. amen..

Vincent is determine to lose weight now.. haa.. he dun mind eating blanch taw gay! ops.. ya, good healthy hearty meal =) we always pray that we lose weight effortlessly? and that we just gain all the nutrients and not the fats.. haa.. this was funny.. amusement in the midst of prayer.. i believe Jesus must be smiling at us.. *laUghx*

i'm praying for mum still.. that she will just get a job soon. favour and grace just covers her.. ya, though she's not a christian YET.. she wil be.. =) amen.. one fne day.. yeah~ ..

running... yap. i'm conquring.. later in the day i will be accompanying pf to jog.. ar dui.. the girl wans to swim, but guess i wan to rest at the later part of the day.. be home.. and let mum send resume.. =) thursday, a day of resting as well.. and Friday! wOoHoo.. CareGroup. *read ur bible pray everyday* <-nursery song

Had a long talk to charissa last night.. till 2 am? haaa.. i mean, i love u alot k? char! i'm sorry for those time we din manage to talk.. be it u doze off or i doze off.. *wink* oh, for those who do not know char, she's my seconday sch fwen.. one that is reali dear to me.. one who do not despise me and cast me aside.. one who accept the way i am, and just love the way i am.. me too.. this friend of me, is precious! =) u guys should meet her, she's a pearly genuine freako! haa.. nah. =) *cHuckLe* alright, it seems the more i write about my day.. my day ended better than it starts.. good laugh with char, good clear talk to vincent.. a brand new morning, with brand new blessing..

was readin the book of James yest for QT. its something for me.. God is faithful pple.. He knows wad u are goin through.. =) rest and lean on Him.=) He's still the ultimate one..

Monday, September 27, 2004
*pant pant* ~Grace Grace~

Today! yap.. a brand new day.. =) i'm so excited.. i'm goin to conquer actionscript once again.. *wink* i'm goin to hurdle through.. yeah~ praise Jesus, that not by my might, not by wad i am.. but wad the bible says.. amen!

i sms Alex to help me in one area.. the shooting part.. arghhh.. its just drive me nuts.. can pratically take a hammer and go hammering people in my lab. no joke.. haa... It works! haa, he definitely a Flash Guru.. ops.. alright, this's wad he's being labeled.. =) oh, alex did enxcouraged me.. *grinx* i felt.. yeah~ i'm sure to tackle this little problem!

Why did i say pant pant as my title of this blog? oh, i went jogging with Darling! yeah, after a LONG big break, dearie is embarking another exercise regime.. he's determine to lose wt, i'm with him.. yeah~ i know he cans, NOW.. cux yongfa is with him.. so there's someone to motivate him.. my boy~ food is paradise to him.. hee.. love my darling.. praying that our love tank would always be filled.. not by our own love, but by Christ's love.. reflect on passion.. amen.. *grinx*.. haaa.. who's not? i'm trying to curb my mooniecakie sensation.. =( its tough u know? after running for 4 rounds, i actually went to yew tee to get more mooncakes.. haix.. i'm such a sucker to those roundie flavoured.. oh, my favourite ones.. wa lau.. Durain and Chesse.. did i mention b4? haa..

oh ya, today's Raymond's Birthday. but he's feeling a little grouchy during lunch. He look fine to me when asking lanyard from me.. but, i guess there's isnt any relai preparation for his birthday.. but Praise Jesus.. the moodiness actually stirs up some stuffs for them.. pingfang though she's on MC, she bought a cake down for raymond.. hee.. there's still celebration.. Praise Jesus.. He never fails to delight in His child.. wad's more Raymond is His precious child. Christian la.. haa..

"No matter what i say, what i believe and what i do, i'm bankrupt without love" -1Corinthians 13:3b (msg)

Saturday, September 25, 2004
..::*a MomeNt of ObsSesion*..::
of Mooncake

Today's CamPus Day!! *Lantern Outing!!!!* yeah baby~ Darling was with me for campus.. *smile* i'm happy that i have his companion, not for accompany me to church but there to be together in God's home.. ultimately, the Man of God seems to be moulding up =) i know Vincent is the one. Though many guys are around.. but none of them can give me the assurance Vincent gave me.. Experience and trials have made my eyes brighter to certain situations and circumstances.. yeah.. and i', adhering to God's ultimate plan.. Jeremiah 29:11! amen.. i know things will prosper in al my way.. whoever is reading.. God has already made plan for u.. though we have made all our plans for ourself, the things we want, the type of bf/gf we want.. but it is God who direct our paths.. =) yeah?

Today's preaching was from Coach Maddy [is it spelt this way?] yap, her preaching was 'Forgiveness.. Leads back to Grace' amen.. no matter how rotten or how many sins u have committed.. God remembers no more! yes, No MOre at all.. Cux 2000 yrs ago, Jesus bore all of it on that cross.. amen.. it all Leads back to the Cross.. =)
After campus, LanTern Outing went to Singapore River! yeah! had a long walk.. and had a talk to Cindy as well =) love her alot.. her talking seems to bring a laugh to me everytime.. Vincent accompanied.. and woOhOoOoo.. we went to put lantern! for the first time in our 3 yrs of courtship.. *grinx* i dun mind being with the CG. i mean, yeah! they are funny people.. had our picture together as a big family! hee.. yeah.. The guys actually took one of the lantern and played as football.. and actually 'cruxify' it on a tree.. huh? *faint* haa.. but that was funny.. reali. =) Oh! Cindy bought PAN PACIFIC DURAIN MOONCAKE ok, i bold it.. its HEaVen..

wa Lau.. i Hack in all the calories these days.. kept eating Mooncake, i think i scare Vincent.. He actually ask me to stop and pull my hand everytime i saw mooncake on display.. eh, so mean! i dunno why also.. just kept thinking of it.. even if i cant savour it in my mouth.. the thought of it.. *fWah* *dRool* i mean, can i indulge? for this once? hee..

Alright, i gotta pen off soon.. Hang on! My friends who's on project.. eh baby, the victory is ours.. u CAN DO IT! yeah!!! believe that.. I LOVE U, whoever's reading! why? cux JESUS LOVES U! yeah!!

Thursday, September 23, 2004
Thursday :)yap.. late for school, yes again.. as usual.. wee helped me sign in.. tomoro there's a BIG event happening in SDN, there's media coming to 'see' the game community.. hee, which means, my lab will be invovled.. must wear nice nice... *wink*

Din reali did alot of scripting today, basically.. discussion again.. with kelvin on our operation missions.. hmm, all the settings, the 'mood' scence... all these, for a koonDo in game like me.. ermx, i take time to absorb to whatever he's saying :) *grinx* Kelvin talked to me about audi's cars.. again, not my cup of tea.. this is those GUY topic... Darling seems to be talking about cars.. sometimes... *wink*

Alright, i feel my mood for shopping is stirring me up.. i 'feel' like spending money.. haa.. u might be thinking. huh? such thing exist? haaa.. to me..

Desire List...

MoonCakes!! yes, i dun mind dozen of them.. snow skin one..
Adidas Water Bottle.. Those small kinky types.. :)
Mini toons.. Handphone Poach..
Hee... Thank U Jesus..


Seek ye first the kingdom of God..
And ALL THESE THINGS shall BE ADDED unto me :)

M203.. GameWeaPon

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

Purposely went late for school *wink* requested wee to help me sign in... u must be thinking..'eh cheater bug' haaa.. yap, i reached... *think* ermx.. 9am? but my sign in time was 8.04am.. *laUgh* ^liar liar butts on fire^ oh ya.. my eye blood shot *scream*.. that's bad..

Did a whole day of scripting.. just went in and concentrate.. *eNgRoss* dun question me! i did, did a lot of scripting today.. basically, if u were to 'weigh' my words in in.. it will be tonnes? nah, exagerrating.. :) [spelling error] *sHruGx*

Alex came to discuss with me and kelvin, on the progress and he wanted our daily tasks.. so as to take note are we behind time.. think i will be embarking on my velocity very soon *cold sweat* .. and *wink* alex's really approachable.. able to help. :) willing to help.. that's one good news to me.. *laughx*

Went joggin with pingfang and tianfu.. raymond was just sitting there guarding our bag.. :) he claim he 'run' more than us.. ermx.. see us run.. ya, alot.. the 3 of us total up to 15 rounds.. *chuCkle*. TianFu is retaking his napfa.. was thinking should i? should i? but standing board jump? feel like one big water bag, just drop *bloop bloop* unto the mat.. *laughx* nah, forget it. they even went swimming after that.. *fWah* i was suppose to. but mum suddenly called me like around 10am asking me to 'reconnect' our home line.. alright, long story. shant go on saying. Ran for 5rounds.. good non stop run.. met aini and azhar in train.. haa.. aini cut her fringe.. nice to me :)

Went to Causeway point with mum to get everything done.. luckily i asked the assitant to escalate our case.. at least mum will be able to use the phone and get one job soon *praying* *favour favour*.. yap.. tired. after that we proceed to sun plaza get the boiler and everything.. we decieded to settle for the cheaper one.. wait for mum to get a job 1st.. dinner and ntuc again.. then to yew tee ntuc.. then home.. long day? yes.. long one.. and heavy baggage as well.. hand swelling..

Feelin reali agitated now.. dun ask me now.. i tried to bottom my feelings.. but i dunwan any quarrel.. this week, just too many quarrels.. i wonder where did i do wrong? i am reali busy.. the schedule and everything.. but *sigh* let me cool down first.

This is wad my dear charly said to me.. yap.. i'm adhering to it. i wan to love God and wadever i have receive from Him up there, i can go on loving people.. i heard from lydia.. this girl from my caregroup.. she said when she 'sayang' her bigger dog, the bigger dog will in turn 'sayang' her little dog.. its like love being transferred.. *smile* though its a 'dog' illustation.. but it make sense rite? [do u, the reader, get it? *wink*

nah.. gotta pen off.. gotta set target tomoro :)
i love u.. i reali do.. Bee.. alright?

Tuesday, September 21, 2004


*DarLing and Me*

*This is Me* 

yap.. engine starting for my FYP. Today's presentation was a jittery one.. Kelvin was first to present, as his presentation had more details of client's info.. i dun mind actually, Alex thought i would. *eYe rOll* the room that we presented.. L445 was using computer which platform was Linux, so poor kelvin had to go all the way up to our lab and get his CPU and attach to the monitor. *sweat* When no one was in the room, i started praying.. just pray for favour and speak in tongues.

why did i say jittery? alex kept asking question and somesort, i felt the pressure addind on everytime he asked a question. till he asked me, so do u think u can get it done at the end of next week, a workable program includes shooting and everything.. *scream* the very fact that i have not embark on my velocity and wind theory.. would i be able to shoot out just anyhow? i couldnt answer, ended up shrugging my shoulders.. tears were already on my eyes rim.. think others lecturers saw, but i couldnt help it. i din want that to happen as well. i just force myself, fighting back all the tears. :( horrible isnt it? i ask to go to the washroom when alex was asking kelvin some question. i cant hold on, mucus are all running down.. ping ping, another really sweet lecturer came to the ladies and console me.. i mean, it did help.. but i ended up crying even more. *silly*

Alright, a 2 hr+ presentation.. it did shock pingfang and the others.. =) wad is there to present for so long? well, discussion took most of the time, and the fact that we were the only group presenting. personally, i guess this is good as well.. as all the lecturer's attention is on our proj. *selFisH*


alright, now that i am home.. i'm feeling so tired.. but gotta get some scripting done.. bubbye for now.. *hugx*

Monday, September 20, 2004

I'm getting tired.. now.. :( taking a breather.. wan to let off from all those scripting..
Darling just left for home.. he kept to help me for my comp and presentation.. Dear, thank u.. i know u are tired.. but u came here even though u are feelin so tired.. :)

Tomoro's my presentation. THank You Jesus.. that u surround me with favours.. amen =) i know that my presentation would be so awesome.. that all the jaws drop.. how will that happen? haaa.. i also duno.. God will handle all the jaw dropping.. *grinx* Wearing formal.. hmm.. *pretty* haa.. will just partake communion b4 everything start. amen.

I'm still thinking about the papaya and drain.. wad is pingfang and weetong referring? huh? nvm, forget it. Jimmy is somehow panic about his project already.. his database, seem reali confusing.. he has been designing for 1 week, but yet to come out..
i'm kinda proud of myself.. the very fact i'm doin the scripting all by myself.. i know by my own efforts, i wouldnt be able to done it so far. can enjoy and done till expectation.. i know.. God must be in it.. can just imagine how God and Jesus smile.. :)

Huimei.. Ur ear are healed already... :) amen? that pain that symptoms ought to be out in ur body. have faith.. partake communion.. love u babe..

Darling, i love u.. no matter wad will happen.. i trust God will transform me and u to be a better partner for each other.. our love tank.. let it be filled with Christ. The TriAnGle theorem.. amen.. :)

*waves* Hello.. *appaluse* my online blog! yap.. u've made it through.. i'm now in my project Lab.. *ops* typing... but, my eye is gonna be blood shot again.. so i guess, programming.. step aside.. *gRinx* time to let off.. but the thing is.. i just started.. haaa.. just came back from lunch..

talking about lunch.. went to north canteen, with the usual clique.. =) sometimes i think.. i'm over obssessed with my weight problem. half kg gained, it will somehow 'blues' my whole day.. cux i would be so bothered.. looking at the mirror, not satisfied the way i look and everything.. is this every woman's problem? *faint* i din wan that to continue again.. have communion, say grace b4 i makan.. and i know i would be able to lose weight effortlessly! yeah baby! Thank u Jesus.. =) amen amen amen! toAsT to His victory and my answered prayer. =)

Yesterday preaching was somethingi bite and somehow chewed on it.. I am Jesus's beloved.. that i'm able to lean on his chest, resting and lean on Him. How secure is that picture? we are all on His chest.. yes. we are secured.. He carry us no matter wad. Jesus... *smile*

I'm missing my darling now.. though these few days, somehow something trigger off is us.. but hey, the devil is fighting a sure lose battle against us.. we are on Victory ground.. we know, we are planted, our roots are rooted in His words.. amen.. Dear told me about psalm 2. =) i like when Vincnet sms or tell me about verses.. in this way, i know he's 'banking' himself up with verses.. i know, there's some battle to fight. the sins in us are much greater than wad we wish we can conquer.. but pastor onced preached.. where sins bound, Grace greater abound! amen.. which means, just leave it to God.. =) AMEN!


alrighty, i gotta get my button working.. will write something.. some some later on. =)