Monday, June 19, 2006
Listening to: bornagainradio.com

you can take apart a clock and work out what makes it tick. maybe even make one urself. but there are somethings you cant reverse-engineered..

time is precious. and all things happen for a reason. be it a good cause or bad. it happen for a purpose.. i was reading a magazine when i was pooing in the toilet. and it said that the most dangerous thingof all to reverse-engineer is a relationship. just looking at the way couples interact gives u no idea what goes on beneath the surface..

i am blessed to have a more than perfect relationship. a man who condone all my mistakes and past mistakes. love me for the way i am.. treasuring me the way i ought to be. :) i am happy when i know my friends are feeling the same way too. the bliss when they have their the other half with them.. i am not trying to boast or something like this. love happens and it blossoms. in a relationship. its all about.. loving and forgiving..

well, can a relaionship be really that easy? i'm going to ace it! but the reason why we dont reverse-engineer a relationship is that its so hard to find one we would want to be in..finding the other half to some can be a kill, to some, a hitch. time is crucial. let time takes it course.. love will find it ways. :)

Sunday, June 18, 2006
i am finally able to rest. have been looking forward for this week ever since early June. ah! bliss!

i will be on Annual Leave for 1 whole week. Reason being.. its to take time off. and this week is hubby and myself celebratin our 5th year anniversary together.. how wonderful life is! when his mum heard about it.. she was too amaze, that how time flies. :)

i will be accompanying grandpa to his checkup tomoro.. its been some 2 weeks that i havent been visting him. argh~ laziness kills..

though i'm on AL, i ought to be happy. leave all working stuffs behind my head. but somehow..i can dream of things which i did not finish. and i can wake up in the middle of the night, just to SMS my superior.. manx. i wonder if i am under stress. i am chasing after some student. tryin to open new classes and tackling some wierd parents. well.. time off? darn.

i think i got to lay my hands on another book. its been sometimes since i last read a good book. well, same goes for exercise. went to flowepod.com and came across a girl who is so depressed about not been able to lose wt, and wanting to lose it. well, all of us.. just want to lose it EFFORTLESSLY.. bet its easy~ hahaha... well. prayer do change things, aint it?

listening to bornagainradio.com. this web was been introduced by my poly good friend - Joseph Ang~.. its been ages since i last saw him. wonder hows everyone. used to go lunch in a big group, used to laugh and burp to whose caring.. i kinda miss my poly friends..

for a split seconds..

does seed contain starch?

Saturday, June 10, 2006
have been feeling very bloated sinch morning.. it might be the breakfast which i treat myself to.. keke, went ahead to my temptation calling~

HotcakeS!! aww, i just love those, melting maple syrup top with butter that is readily melting on the hot hotcakes. :) i hope it did make some of u drool and crave for hotcakes.. hahaha..

this is something which i will usually treat myself when i'm working weekend. time can be really a kind of drag? well... i just closed a Creativity case again. it seems that i need to zest up. if i do, i think i can really hit Eugenia or Mr Peh's target. keke. i'm lazy that's all.. sad thing, my Dalton has got his sch camp. so we had to refund him, hence.. minus one headcount under my name.. well, human true reality..

there has been many good shows coming up.. and i am looking forward for my Annual Leave. keke.. i think my savings would be wipped out though. with all the plannings and so on.. well.. Hubby and myself are planning to for Marche.. He din tried it before, guess it would be a good treat. Rosti~ with the large german sausage topped with sour cream. aww~ savour it!

i think a new colleague will be joining us soon. well, i hope she would be someone i can click with. hopefully... here is bored enough. let me have someone which can kill my time faster....

Friday, June 09, 2006
Drag day.. I just realised that i am getting more and more tired of working. it seems that time is dragging.. seconds by seconds. i'm trying to find work to keep me occupied. but, the thing is.. it dun happen when i was in my previous branch. i will always so many things to do yet so little time to settle. now, i have a abundance of time...

i wonder if this is good. Shirley used to say... 'if u're busy, its a good sign. if we're not busy.. something is wrong somewhere' hmm... i wont i'm not brewing any problems.. keke. my right hand assistant, Sharon is going for her long weekend cum weekday off. aww.. i think i gonna miss her. she used to be there with me rot when we have nothing to do.. hai. sad. its ok.. i shall keep myself busy. i shall...

i get the uplifted feeling when i received compliments from my superior.. er, it might be indirectly.. but i chose to believe she's complimenting me. keke. so happy.. i realised that my EOAs are really a happening and loving bunch.. i hate to see them leave. well, another batch will be in. i wonder if they would be the same age as me.. or older?

my stomach has not been feeling well. have been those bloated sensation. can feel like burping, but feel like vomit at the same time. Doc prescribe Magnesium as my medicine.. well, i think my stomach is super acidic. haha.. i wonder why. my pH is higher than required. i am at the pre stage of stomach flu. *sniff or worse, stomach ulcer~

i chose to believe.. i am already HEaled 2000yrs ago! toast!

Wednesday, June 07, 2006
i was looking at my hotmail.. its being sometime which i actually filter my mails.. the other time i logged on.. hotmail actually deactivited my mail.. *faintx* guess, i have to be very faithful to that email as well.. that mail, it has all my contacts, my receipes and stuffs..

these days, or should i say.. the past 1 yr, i have only been checking my corporate mail and neglect my hotmail. i received many mails from many people. some was from my church mates. was.. i was in their email loop. known as nypcg. -Nanyang Poly CareGroup- we used to meet every alternate Fri for caregroups. in one tutorial room. everytime i have CG with them. i feel very loved.. all of them are so real, none of them are of fake intention.. i am so easily blended into one of them. loving and caring for each other..

i am a big sinner. havent been going to church for quite some time.. to some of my friend, i am onced a strong believer in Him. now that i backslided. i have no words of defence to build myself up. i done myself wrong.. i backslided. but! i know still. that He is the man of my life. ultimately.. Jesus taught and held my hand when all has forsaken me.. i experience him before.

this entry, i'm writing alittle on Jesus's side. cux, i kinda miss him.. i received my CG leader Eileen email, circulating the song which i used to sing in church.. there was a fondness feeling. i nearly teared. the video was epicted in the show - Passion of the Christ.

i can rememeber very cleary that.... right after i watch that show, i head to Church for youth grp. we had communion on that day. the show so fresh in my head, i was holding His body and His blood which bleed for my sins. i couldnt hold my feelings. who would have died for me? there was many times, i broke down when i remember that scene. Jesus made me feel so loved, made me feel so treasured..

these are all my heartfelt words. i just keep typing and trying to recollect my feelings which i used to have.. the mustard seed which He has planted in me has not withered. but it will continue to grow. i still want my family to be build on Christ. to hear my childrens saying that they do not fear for they have Jesus.

from my bottom of my heart.

Jesus, i love U.

You take my hand, lead me to your side
Your warm embrace, sets my heart on fire
You are my shelter, God of all wonders
You are the Hero of my life

I live for You, Saviour of my life
Your love for me is wider than the sky
You are my shelter, God of all wonders
You are the Hero of my life

Chorus

You came for me, Your life for mine
When I couldn't save myself
You bore my pain, my sins my shame
Jesus My Lord My Life.

head to this site, to have a hear of the song. which i hold deeply in me still.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H6nlUw98Qhs&search=new%20creation