Tuesday, September 27, 2005

hmm.. kinda bored to blog these days.. well. it might be, i have practically NOTHING to blog. being waiting for pay day. (*hee) tt's all. well, goin to visit my Grandpa later on.. din see him for 2 weeks, and he's already calling me to ask how am i.. my grandpa's sweet. he's genuine. unlike someother, who claim love me.. yet (NVM)

something very unpleasant happen to me on sunday.. not trying to be unfilial here.. but anyway. i am unfiliar to Her only.. tried to show some respect yet i dun reap back wad i sow. money is wad she ever care.. i cant believe she threaten me to spoil the relationship with Vincent. She wans some kind of reconciliation? its too late, more things u have done have already accumulated anger and hate. no use sayin goin for such stuffs, and in the end.. u threaten me. in the end.. hammer my door, in the end.. spoil relationship. i see u as a devil, i see u as someone spoiling my life.
if she ever does that. i'm out of this house. believe me.. she changed into someone i dun wan to see her at all.. the more i say, the more anger i have. i just hate coming home. (is this called.. home?) i should say, i just hate coming back to this place.. honestly.

enough said. *poof*
chargin my ipod now.. its out of battery. the batt's good. unlike my nokia batt, dead for just few days.. goin to Suntec later to change it.[ i just hope they allow that] if not, i think i'm gonna bang the door out. Suntec.. hmm, time to do some shopping! (: just window shopping.. cant spend money anyway.. see wad catches my eye. u never know.

i think the company had just done my appraisal and i'm asked to judge myself first.. *faint* i think i gave myself most of the full marks. *heh* i thought i did good. ermx, only for some saturdays, which i'm really grouchy. just dread all sat, when the crowd is damn big and not enough people.. the feeling of not getting things done really sent crazyness into me. and i practically show it infront of my colleagues. i gotta change this part..

theres alot of things trudgin my road these days.. i know my friend is concern about me.. but i duno how to face them. the more they wan to ask me, they more i shun away. i have been more hurt than loved by these so called 'bosom friends'.
and when they try to...(er) i just cant bring myself back with smiles with them. i'm not a hypocrite.
if i dun feel like seeing someone for some apparent reason, i better not see them. cux i dunwan to fake any emotions in front of them. causing any of us, embarrasment.. i have been out of their circles long enough, till i thought, i have already been forsaken by them. well long ago, i anticipated this. so i'm getting not that edgy about these. well, its ok.. i'm getting well enough in life. shant brood myself.

have too many problems. i'm a problem kid. er, i mean. i'm a problem adult. hmmm. its me, that i have a problem with. (it seems.)

@ 9:32 AM

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

today's my rest day.. and i guess, i deserved this rest day... aww *stretch*

was supposed to go KTV with my colleagues, but weather's too good to tuck me away back to lullaby. (: many things happen these few weeks.. good things though, yet tiring. *frown*

had another workshop on last Friday organised by company.. i'm appreciating every bit and move my company is organising for us. all the trainings, that we do not need to fork out a single cent, yet educating us all the essentials... how nice? Last friday workshop was named 'Just Power Up'.

it was some kind of missionary thingy i undergo way back in STC. only this time, it aint any religion. is a long 12 hr course. though it last for 13 hrs.. all of us was ushered into our meeting room with blasting music in the backgound. very hip and hop.. very 'young' kind of feeling.. hurhur..

well, this course, its something to do with urself, motivating and believin in urself. had multiple of different feelings when i'm undergoin this training..
one of it which i learned and realise was the real power of mind.. i was put to sleep on a floor with a person whispering some stuffs to me.. strange enough, i feel into concuss, not knowing they actually lift me up and laid me on 2 chairs. (i pity those man, i might have broke their hands.haha) some girls was asked to step on me. [yes!] and 2 of my male boss was asked to sit on me((YESS)). not to worry. i din feel anything.. i swear. they felt like pillow. light. very light indeed.. hmmm.. i was brought back to reality. and knowing who sat and stepped on me. couldnt believe. but it was witness by 30 over people. cant be wrong.. i was physic into 'sub-consious' mind, hearing and making me feel like a steel rod. and i was a steel rod when i'm placed on a chair.. anyone who sat or stepped on me, i am still a steel rod..

deep thinking. the power of mind. how powerful? by believing that i am a steel rod. i handle weight that i never knew i could handle.. speechless, i was amaze and dumbfounded.. i will start to believe.

emotions was running high at the last part when they showed us a video clip about Helen Keller, a deaf and blind child. all of us was weeping.. (should get the dvd)

i am getting so happy.. i am also getting confirm as well.. (: it might be the next meeting that i can attain the post i long wanted to.. patience patience..

enough about work.. Hubby's finally POP. and he's been posted to a driver. he seems quite sad about it, though he dint really tell me he's not that happy. but i know darling will prosper in that area. these 3 days have been monopoly and slack.. darling, u gotta hang in. be there for attendance. if they do not have any plans.. just play along with them.. have nothing to lose. (:

when dear was in tekong, i was looking forward his call at ard 10pm. that's when he will faked sleep and talked to me.. no matter how tired he was, darling will also attempt to call me. i appreciate that.. and no matter how i felt durin the day.. i feel recharged after speaking with brownie.. He kept the faith in me so well, believing in me, trusting and motivating when i feel down or lost. he's concerned did i take my meals, he concern if i have enough money.. i love this man.. he's been thru all the thick and thin and all sort of shits. *ops* but we've grown to be one in unison.. saving for our future, slowli and steadily..

dear,

Happy 51st Month!

@ 2:13 PM

Sunday, September 11, 2005

Band Entry

was reading some of my band junior's blog.. *sigh* i miss STCMB(STC Military Band). have been out of it.. for 3-4 yrs.. i cant deny the fact that band was my life.. even till now, when i see some band performing, it will send.. goosebumps on my goosebumps. band was my life.. back in STC.

wad i felt being emotional about, was when i was reading this junior's blog.. she had some sort of same view as me, though graduated from band, she stil wans to be back there helping and moulding.. i had 3 great instructors in my life. Mr David Gloz who was a gread band instructors(according to some), was the one who placed me in Tuba section... Miss Doreen Tan.. who was another BIG name in the band world. She's the one.. who has clinched with us the Silver medal that was also the moment of Glory for my batch... and lastly, Mr Eric Wong. Mr Wong was the most impressive band conductor, friend and leader. He believed so much is us, and had build us up to one strong band that can easily conquer grade 5 pieces.. (i'm feelin really emotional now) He taught me the meaning of being one true good leader. in all these learning, i loved STC band to bits.. i can easily skip my remedial lunch break to teach sectionals to my juniors. i can skip my poly lectures and tutorials to have band practices with them, to prepare with them for the major concert. i was really enthu.
all thanks to Mr Wong. but all these are only memories, and i'm like writing in respond to what i read on my junior's blog.

there's a lot more to write.. the passion i have for band and tuba.. all credits should go to Mr Wong. He's the one that had impacted so much in me, and i believed. the girls of my batch and my juniors. everyone knows about band. the group of the most discilpline, and glory. other CCAs actually wanted to 'copy' us, in attitude. alas, they failed. cux, they do not have a good leader behind.

what i can say.. from the bottom of my heart.
:: Thank you, Mr Wong ::

He believed so much in me, wanting me to join another band when i graduated in band, believing that i carry the good attitude of STCMB and the playing skills i have..
He prayed for me before, when i felt so lost in certains areas in my life.
He apologise to me before, when he thought he reprimanded me in the wrong way.

He presented me with the 'Best Graduating Band Member' award, among so many who i thought could have gotten that..

of course, i doubt he wont be reading this. and i hope he wont be able to read. hahhaa.. ae.. nvm..

a great man. great man of God.

i know, Vincent respect Mr Wong as well.. whom he addressed as Brother Eric. yes, He's even involved in our courtship. but that aint impt. He led vincent to church.. i owe Wong big time..

i really wonder, if STCMB is still under Wong. would it still be in this state? hmm.. we could have been a Gold band... already...easily under his baton.. wonder wad's that sch thinking of changing band instructors when its so so near the major SYF. no brains..

turn back time if i could. i would train myself and my junior to be a better section.. to be a better individual player.

@ 8:14 PM

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

goodness gracious.. i hope my eye is beginning to heal by its own.. it was really bad till Shirley and some student's mum commented on my eye conditions.. i am not crying and i am not sad! was my answer to many of the mummies.. it was funny though.

i wonder why, i always got infected by those kids illness.. when Hand Foot Mouth Dieseas was in rage in singapore, ironically... i was one of the 'kids' who got infected. primarilly was because, i was serving in NCC nursery. i got quarrantine and was on MC for up to 2 weeks.. during my proj days somemore.. hahaha... i am not that weak lah. (i chose to believe)

mooncake fest is coming! and mooncakes are everywhere!! temptation island is on call.. argh. nvm, since hubby doesnt allow me to buy, i made myself! hahaha.. i attended one baking class, and will try it soon enough. (: just oil the mold and knead the paste with melon seeds.. mooncake making!..

i din buy, i make! *cHuckles

i was having some problem with the mooncake mold few days ago. i was in a mooncake conudrum though.. it was supposed to soaked in oil for 1 day, i went to wash it(cux there was some wood craving still in the craft) and wad i din expect was, the wood actually crack! come on, how can i do mooncake when the mold cracked.. went for an exchange, and gladly enough.. the stall owners allow me to. good cust service. HAHA. one auntie gave me 2 plastic mold for snow skin as well.. WHAO! i am so ecstatic. i am was really! big grin yest when i feel so contended. hurhur.. alrighty.. will post up pic if the mooncake turns out well! yee ah!

@ 11:32 AM

Sunday, September 04, 2005

sob... i'm one of those many who have been infected with the recent uproar, SoreEYE!
it just *blink* and happen. and it happen on the day when i waited for so long. on Vincent's birthday.
woke up early, doll myself up and get ready for work.. (yes, i work on some sat too..) ard noon time, something just not right happen. my both eyes were both really dry and irritable. i thought it was my mascara or eye shadow had went in. hahaha.. till Shirley commented on my eyes.. 'eh, ur eyes cannot make it'. it was than... i went to see the doc. sad. spending money again. strange enough.. why din the doc gave me MC? since he said its infectious?

nvm, yest was my darling adulthood birthday. He had his share of fun and joy with his poly mates in the afternoon. met up with me and had our BIG share of dinner. keke. we ate really till our hearts content, literally. our food was way up above our stomach. Hubby kept saying his stomach had shrink. making me feel.. i ate more than him. i thought i was only wanting to make the money worth. arghh.. bite bite.
today was a feast as well, vince's mum whipped up so many dishes till the dining area is full of glorious food. its a family together eating. i mean, i feel home-ness and wholeness whenever i am at darling's place. :)

the next sinful thing to embark is... the cake. we have yet to cut the cake. due to darling and all of us are too full to eat another mouth. hahaha.. shall take a pic and post up here. ahahha.. provided.. darling allow. x)

@ 4:20 PM

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