Saturday, October 30, 2004
Presentation was a total screwed up... so upset about the whole thing.. seriously, though it started off well, as in.. i did joke with alex and leo about somethin, we did have laughter, well.. before presentation..

Screwing up is only when hobbit(miss teo) is around.. alright, i know i shouldnt be rude, but she does reali look like one.. the bombarding session.. askin and questioning as in i did nothing.. something like 'do u stay back and finish up, do u understand what's in ur project, do u think u reali did a fantastic job? is launching all about in the game? come on lo.. she expect me to read up and know everything about actionscript in the first 2 weeks.. even if now, i'm doin scripting, i maybe exposed to another way of coding.. scripting is nerverending.. i couldnt fight back my tears.. i reali tried my best, to keep calm and compose myself.. but when she shoot another question, u take so many time to think? i could have add up all ur 'thinking' time and add up, it'll equal to half the time here.. wad i meant in thinking was, researching, testing, finding the right implementation and everything.. she plainly though i sit there and think and did nothing.. wa lau.. kelvin gave me a packet of tissue after that.. this is agonising.. reali.. in front presenting in lab, where everyone is in there, i din wan anything to happen. *SCREAM*
U think its easy? no its not.. i repeat.. its not! so feeling so the so the.. nvm.

My School of IT lecturer, Anthony encouraged and helped me.. he himself know i did put in the effort. Anthony ask me to pull through.. and i will.. guess no more break for me again. terrible. cried when i was alone in lab.. after presentation, i thought i could rest a little before i embark on my report and technical documentation, seem not yet. i stayed back till 8.30pm. just sat there and do non stop, when all went for dinner. i hate it. i reali hate it. things and situation is so bad. Dear has beem trying so hard to cheer me up..yes he did. and i guess only he can.. its ok.. God never put a challenge too big that i cant handle.. God will handle, and i will pull through.

Friday, October 29, 2004
the day's finally here.. the blessed day of presentation.. i know ah-ha! i'm going to do well.. Though i thought this proj is alittle too kiddy-fied.. but, nonetheless... my job's done.. and eh eh hey, i'm kinda proud i've made it through. yes, finally. after 12 weeks of slogging and burying myself with programming. i guess, its time.. to reali go out and play!!! yeah~

guess i wan to catch Incredibles and also shark tale.. =) yee BA~ i wan to see show!! now that primary sch's exams are over.. i've more time for Vincent as well.. Bee has been reali understanding and encouraging.. trying his best to make me smile and move on.. aww.. i love u dear.. =) no public annoucment, but.. meow.. =)

Today alex came to look for me onli at around 3.50pm.. manx.. school's end at 6pm, and he told me.. i din get the logic correct.. and that logic is sequence to 3 scenes!!! when he tell me that, i just wan to bang his head.. *laugh* nah, i'm not that violent.. when he left me to think about it.. this's the first time, i force all my brain juice to think think think and think.. annoying drilling in lab make me lose distraction and head spin.. stuff my ears with music.. somesort full blast, but couldnt care less.. i just wan to get that hmmm.. idotic thing done.. till when i reali felt upset? tianfu mention something about wrath? hey! hee.. God's wrath vent on Jesus.. the thought of 'Jesus.. hand it to Him' came to me.. i gave out a smile.. and replied to Tianfu, but guess i scare him in my reply.. haaa.. *grinx* *relieve sigh* went to pee and wash face.. went back and start to struggle, but this time after praying.. i'm more relax and cool about it.. tune down volume, ignore people and drilling.. think think and think.. get it! calculated the ratio, implemented into scenes.. called out function, throwing of variables!
Clap hands people! *piak piak* i've done it!!!! so happy.. turn to Kelvin and scream.. haha.. the feeling.. done on the dot.. so ecstatic... reali.. sms alex and ask him over to check.. hee.. done.. alex knew that i kan chiong.. he actually commented "wah, u're fast huh" gave out a grin.. come on.. i dunwan alex to go home.. so grab him first.. haaa

alrighty, i goin to do milestones now.. *yawn* strive!

Thursday, October 28, 2004

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never knew of this song.. wah! the lyrics touched me.. simply listening for the whole night.. who can deny? music reali caters to soul, for me at least...
(= smile =)

Nick Lachey - This i swear

You're there by my side
In every way
I know that you would not forsake me
I give you my life
Would not think twice
Your love is all I need believe me

I may not say it quite as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

I'm wondering how I ever got by
Without you in my life to guide me
Where ever I go the one thing that's true
Is everything I do I do for you

I may not say it quite as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

So whenever you get there
Just reach out for me
I'll never let you down my love

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

Wednesday, October 27, 2004
Layla Kaylif - Shakespeare in Love

wOoHoO!! *pom pom parade* wOoShH WooOsh! i simply love this song.. remind me of huimei and stc.. aww.. again. When are we girls goin to have gathering agian? when my darling friend Charissa, Chun, Rachel, Yulin, Joanne, Peggy.. be back.. did i miss anyone? *wink*

feel like eating Hello Panda now.. *raise eye brow* well anyway....... *cHuckle*

today was James and other IT students presentation.. onli me not yet.. huh? why? i also duno.. perhaps, alex is on course.. so mine was postpone.. well.. aint easy.. the question they shot james was.. bam.. tough.. if it was me in front presenting.. i was wondering.. will i be able to handle? history would have repeated.. yea~ i actually break down in the first presentation. the intense fear, trying to fight back, feigning strong and knowing my task well.. *faint* SDN lecturers are one cool off the block manx.. they are nice people.. but when serious get goin, they get goin as well.. and its time students die die must be in-line to any of their track listing.. people could actually stayed back till wee hours in the night, just to get things done.. hai..

Darling's examination start today.. i know for myself.. He is one that God wanna excel, use Vincent and do well, glorify in His name.. prayed for Him just before 2pm.. and guess wad? wadever question he think would be out.. somesort predicted are out! i mean! God.. must be God.. *hand point to sky* shake shake people.. He rulex!

Joseph's maths paper tomoro! u go boy! u can do it.. not by ur might.. u know it for urself.. God is always more than willing to take charge for u.. If He do it for me.. He will not miss u out as well.. =) keep smiling manx..

Thanks friend.. for exchanging so many songs over one night.. though i had thanked u once and once again.. but, i'm glad our paths crossed.. as being friends.. than traading music.. funny! Although Project days was reali tensing.. but nonetheless.. a heartful of fun as well.. know of so many true friends.. having really a bad headache the other day, was as severe as migrain? and YQ actually went down to seg canteen get panadol for me.. *touched* Thank u YQ! when one of my sandles the strape actually went *piak* one day.. =torn= *cries* [my leather ark shoe!] jimmy accompanied me ran all the way to amk and get one pair <- this was funny.. [raining as well] those break times that can last up to 2 hrs.. *laughx* just sit there hearing them talking, and since when talking has been such an enjoyment? =) 3 yrs in poly.. everyday same lecture.. sure bump.. but its only in the last yr that we all got to chat.. nah, at least.. better than aquanted. [is it spelt this way? *sHruGx*] in short.. Thank U Lord.. that u always fulfill me.. surrounding me with favour.. surrounding with all these cheeky funky people..and of course blessing me Vincent, this guy i wouldnt trade with any other things.. Vincent is really my pillar of strength, and everyday life support.. =) meow meow lah! more than enough.. though times are tough at home.. i know this mountain at home, will be move in ur Name.. *smile* =hands clenched= *nod* amen *winkie winkie*

Monday, October 25, 2004


..::*NYPCG*::..

Sunday, October 24, 2004
The sudden onset of intense anxiety, characterized by feelings of intense fear and apprehension and accompanied by palpitations, shortness of breath, sweating, and trembling. Also called anxiety attack. Dateline is here! soon! this is mayB the first programming project i did till so nerve racking and entirely on my own.. yes, i did consult help. but *bang wall* sir always wan me to think.. and its alot of logic thinking! alot.. tonnes.. weigh my words.. come on, i had enough.

*scram off* edgy at this moment.. doin the presentation now.. ae.. i meant, the ppt slides.. manx, i'm just bragging. teach me people, out there who are programmers.. how do u present programming project to people? huh? show them my codes? i guess i would have knock down many listening.. end up all nodding their heads in approval to sleeping.. [get it?] i'm suppose to make it as impressive as possible.. alright, i had nothing to lose. God's problem.. =)

MSN nick is 'I wan to be a mighty duck' hahaa.. guess not many people know about this duckie story.. =) let me share it.. learnt it from pastor prince. it relates, reali.. as least for me, now.
Why duck? ok, let's recall how duck float on water in those documentary shows? they seems so calm, so cool.. [coolness] and relax on water.. ya? u seldom see them afriad not able to stay afloat.. but ever wonder wad's happening off the screen? underwater? their legs are paddling hard to keep the duck afloat and going.. that's wad i wanna be.. be a duck.. a graceful duck, at the exterior.. calm and ready-to-go.. not defeating.. but deep down, i know i'm doin my best to keep this body going.. amen.. beautiful illustration huh? sometimes i wonder.. will i ermx.. not make it for FYP? well, tianfu said.. " sweeter is failure when u know u had done ur best, at least u tried.. than failin not trying' something like this.. =) i felt... aww, make sense, and this sentence reali touched me.. =) aint God good? =)

i know after all this ahhh.. burying times in lab, i would be off.. and i would be enjoying life again.. duno am i stress or wad? kept binge.. can one time dun eat anything, just plain not-hungry.. or just turn into some greedy, ravening appetite.. bad.. had supper for 2 days.. when cant get wad i wan on the stopid program, tend to walk to kitchen.. and chocolate time.. anti-depressant pill.. hahaa.. but once in mouth, it gets addicted.. choc, bread, grass jelly drink, loads of bread.. *tight-fist* i'm such a floury addict.. alrighty. pen off time.. =) anyway people.. no matter how anxious or wadever feeling.. i'm still His child.. and all things work for my good.. i'm not being optimistic.. but surely, all the days of my life.. God will satisfy.. People, Jesus is real.. His empty tomb is still there.. that's evidence that he lives.. amen..

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Psalm 86:11 NIV
Teach me your way, O LORD, and I will walk in your truth; give me an undivided heart

Thursday, October 21, 2004
Breath of Life... *gasp* *gasp*

ahhhhh.. damn tired. k shall make an effort to blog properly.*yawn* wonder how do i practically define 'life' now.. wake up, enter into a blanggar invested and dust-mite area.. (my lab), script the whole day, ticks to 6pm, tuition, and home scripting.. *SCREAM* =get me out!= 2 more weeks.. freeDom i seek! eEe-Bah!

do seeds contain starch?

feel like eating those big junicy tomatoes now.. *smile* who knows about veggietales? shock to hear joseph actually knows.. haa.. my favourite is larry the cucumber! yeah~ watched with my nursery kids.. aww.. i seen some of them growing to preschoolars, and while i was doing the screening for them.. they all know the procedure.. as in... ok 'hands out, legs out, tongues checked' settled.. sticker paste.. hahhaa.. just imagine, half daze look on the kids and doing all these.. yup, some are reali clingling on mummy not letting go.. it happens.. =) just cant wait to have one.. ops.. 26Yrs old.. the age! =) amen =)

STC band concert is on 31st Oct.. aww, was listening to Alvamar and Persis Overture.. i tell u, my goosebumps was on my goosebumps.. that thrill feeling.. of being able to hear and recall how we played as a band.. i reali wanna go back there and play.. time is precious. serious.. one moment wasted means one moment gone.. it aint coming back. and dun waste time.. cux the onli time to show u appreciate time is.. to love.. aww.. i miss band.. i miss tuba.. i miss my section.. i miss my juniors.. i miss Jasmine Ji.. the junior whom i know i loved till now.. i miss BAND!reali.. stcmb.. those stupid times when we poured soft drinks while the seniors are marching, the times when we bang the vending machine.. the times when we sleep at the hardcourt.. the time when we have fun running, yes with my tuba! =nuts= the time when we say band-tee and Mr Wong thought it was 'pantie'.. alright.. it resembles.. *chuCkle*

*PonDer* What is life now? Days are packed with scripting.. *frown* life is all about scripting and datelines.. for me, now.. =( felt so empty.. tomoro's caregrp's day! and i'm looking forward.. to have a 'fall afresh' on me with Jesus.. sitting there and receive blessings.. *just cant wait*

Dearie's exam are coming, and my presentation is approaching as well.. IT students are presenting on 11th week.. cux the hobbit got a duno wad seminar.. *bish* means, i have to cramp alot in lab, and perhaps.. doin it durin the weekend.. alrighty, enough of my agHgghh complaint.. God is so faithful.. help is always on its way when i just feel like givin up.. friends and dearie to tell me that i can do it.. a God that answers me.. Thank U Jesus.. that because.. i'm standing on Victory Ground.. and i'm winning a sure-win battle.. come on people.. place ur bets.. =) u are winning! *wink* I LOVE U! whoever's readin.. cux my Daddy up there Loves u first.. =)

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i'm standing on a bridge
i'm waiting in the dark
i thought that you'd be here by now
there's nothing but the rain
no footsteps on the ground
i'm listening but there's no sound

isn't anyone trying to find me
won't somebody come take me home

it's a damn cold night
trying to figure out this life
won't you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
i don't know who you are but i
i'm with you

i'm searching for a place
i'm looking for a face
is there anyone here i know
cuz nothing's going right
and everything's a mess
and no one likes to be alone

isn't anyone trying to find me
won't somebody come take me home

it's a damn cold night
trying to figure out this life
won't you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
i don't know who you are but i
i'm with you

why is everything so confusing
maybe i'm just out of my mind

it's a damn cold night...

avril lavigne - i'm with you

Tuesday, October 19, 2004
frustrated

It aint easy this week.. 2 days pass for school, and things improved slightly.. skip lunch skip break, in hope to get this functionality working.. arghHh.. i'm reali lookin forward of handing in this damn proj.. ya, i'm reali on my nerves..

Ouch, my eye had this little swollen thing, duno should i called it an ulcer.. ulcer in eye? how bad can this be.. on specs today.. vision isnt that clear even.. pain go! vision restored! amen manx...

Darling had been reali sweet to me.. he borrowed books for me.. in SP library.. flash 5 books, though its already in week 10, but i reali do appreciate.. he took the extra mile to look for me.. *smile* =huGx= i mean, little things works wonders..
these days, this friend.. had been reali encouraging.. msn-ing me jokes.. and encourage me that i can do it.. thanks.. =)when i reali dun feel like doin, God just sent people.. and i'm reali grateful.. =) reali..

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this is the joke he sent me.. haa.. he thought i was stress till i thought this was a riddle.. how funny.. made me laugh in the lab.. alone...

Two blondes living in Texas were sitting on a bench talking and the one blonde says to the other. "What do you think is farther, Florida or the moon? " The other blonde turns and says "Helloooooooooooooooooooo.... can you see Florida?"

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hahaaa.. get it?
i'm reali hanging on.. be determine to go finish this proj path, be on my way to lose wt.. yeah~ i wanna play tennis with them! but.. why am i here? stuck? *cries*

i know, my situation are YEs and Amen! yeah~ its done.. perfected in HIs plan.. -Jeremiah 29:11-

Monday, October 18, 2004
> got this from one of my friend.. hey, it did cheer me up.. read on and laugh on~ keep smiling people! =)
An elderly couple had dinner at another couple's house, and after eating, the wives left the table and went into the kitchen. The two elderly gentlemen were having a conversation, and one said, "Last night we went out to a new restaurant, and it was really great. I would recommend it very highly."

The other man said, "What's the name of the restaurant?" The first man knits his brow in obvious concentration, and finally said to his friend, "Aahh, What is the name of that red flower you give to someone you love? His friends replies, "A carnation?" No. No. The other one" the man says. His friend offers another suggestion, "The poppy?" Nahhhh, growls the man. You know the one that is red and has thorns." His friend said, "Do you mean a rose?" Yes, Yes that's it. Thank you!" the first man says.

He then turns toward the kitchen and yells, "Rose, what's the name of that restaurant we went to last night?"

Thursday, October 14, 2004


stc band.. my last concert with them.. i'm reali missing these times.. reali.

Darling quote me this.. to others reading.. doin their proj.. have faith... :)


Jesus said in Mark 9:23 "If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes." Never surround yourself with fears nor traces of worries in your heart. He who loves you takes care your route of life and if He doesn't appear in your times of need, remember that He is doing and storing something great for you to praise Him with exceeding joy. To now till 6 Nov 2004, let your faith be test

Two Beds and a Coffee Machine
Savage Garden

Presentation... Thanks Char for the prayer over the net.. i was calmer than the previous presentation.. mayB i know deep in me, God was in control.. and guess wad.. alex told us off :( (kelvin and i) that if we dun buck up, we would be failing this proj.. manx.. i mean, i reali rack off my brains, think till my brain cells arGggh.. forget it.. wee tong came over to call me to 'eh hai bu yao hui jia ar' i din even realise its 6pm.. i was still upset by wad alex said.. this sound so bad.. its ok.. i noe, it will soon be over, and it will be over gloriously.. Distinction is still chasing after me.. =) smile..

Ate Portugese TART!!!! ahhh! *grinx* with pingfang, its being so long since i devour thses sinful stuffs.. but think of weekend indulgence.. its sinful enough.. i need to help darling to lose wt, and not tempt him.. *shake head* Hello Panda's fault.. these days, got a cravin on those chocolatey food.. =(

Joey's maths foundation is there.. taught her volume, and half of my mind was on the wind theory.. her exams's coming.. my proj dateline coming.. crasHed.. think time management plays a part right now.. just lookin forward during the weekend...


Hello Daddy God.. *smile* Thank u Daddy that u have surround me with favour today during presentation, that all things went smoothly and i know all things are working for my good.. Lord, i pray that i will be getting wisdom, time management, favour, grace to finish this last lap.. last lap of glory.. i wanna glow for ur glory.. Thank U Jesus.. that No Weapons form against me shall prosper.. no weapons at all.. Psalm 91 it said.. a thousand may fall at my sight, ten thousand at my right hand.. but it shall not come near me! hallelujah! Praise U, Jesus..
Lord, i uplift my relationship with Vincent unto ur hands that its crafted into ur perfect plan.. let us be paddling towards ur glory where we seek a higher touch from u.. Daddy God.. Protect him, shield him and give him the knowledge, rest and wisdom for his coming exams.. let Him know that u are in Total Control..
And~~ LORD! BLESS MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS... =) Char to be focus and results to be amazing well.. (Amen) AiPeng to go church soon.. Huimei to be growing spiritually well.. Denice to feel belonged in church.. Chun continue to be a blessing to people ard.. my partner... Kelvin to be able to draw fast and do finish everything. (amen)PingFang and Wee to be able solve CFC.. Tian and Ray to be able to glory this journey. Joseph to be able to do well in his exams despite his worries.. Cindy to be cured from her sickness.. Lord, all these ur problems.. =) AMEN!

Wednesday, October 13, 2004
Ghost of u and me
BBMak

drilling in lab was bad.. =( kelvin went to think that its hard rock metal song.. *laughx* sometimes, driling get too much into the brain, its better to think its something good. =)

Stress level +1;
terrible.. i nearli break down when i get back to lab during lunch.. Cherry and i was the onli ones in that 'cold' room.. as usual.. songx stuck in ear, thinking of the stupid never-ending logic... till i look blurred, and dazeeeeee... nvm.. friend of mine actually sense i stress after i changed my nick.. "sharpen ur senses" haaa.. msn me a joke.. its down below this blog.. the turtle one.. haa, it did make me laughed.. =) and i listen to a southpark song.. 'kyle's mum is a bee-yatch' tt's funny.. got it from sch's server.. =) my presentation is postpone again, cux this time is leo that is on MC.. well, delayed.

Chatting with Penelope now.. i'm reali missing stc. Reali.. today was in lab, listening to those old songx.. remember my juniors.. lyrics: 'i lay my XxxX on' this song reminded me of them cux they saw this big breasted woman laying her assets on the table.. aww, eunice and qianyi,i miss ur lame cold jokes that reali can make my head out.. 5 joanerx, those burpings session we had, the times spent doin mural and batik.. can we go back and stink ourselves? *ChuCkle* play in the rain till we have to climb sch gates.. play touch rugby and pull of shirts.. we dun even care about whether guy does reali exist.. pulling of our skirt. laugh for no apparent reasons.. writing postcards.. hugging, mission days. when our bond just tighten.. OH! STC big big pillar where we all just hug and take picture.. manx.. hiding in toilet to get away history and geo. =) *laughx* eh! TURN BACK TIME!

Charissa, Chunnie, Peng, Mei, Denice, Sheila, Joanna, Eunice, QianYi, My Juniors.. Jasmine and Mohan, SiewFang, XiaoXuan, Melissa & Michelle -my beloved twins. i love u girls alot.. those picture i have.. are treasures.. esp my twins.. i had the photos when u girls were in sec 1 till sec 4.. with me.. i can still differentiate the both of u.. =)pretty babes~

STC.. the place, i'm transform.. the place God found me.. the place i kept my most treasured memories.. Saint Theresa's Convent.

This is funny.. got it from tianFu to destress =) hahahaaa.. it helps! thanks manx!

Two turtles go camping and pack a cooler with sandwiches and beer. After three days of walking, they arrive at a great spot but realize they've forgotten a bottle opener. The first turtle turns to the second and says, "You've gotta go back and get the opener or else we have no beer."

"No way," says the second. "By the time I get back, you will have eaten all the food."

"I promise I won't," says the turtle. "Just hurry!"

Nine full days pass and there's still no sign of the second turtle. Exasperated and starving, the first turtle digs into the sandwiches. Suddenly, the second turtle pops out from behind a rock and yells, "I knew it! I'm not f-cking going!"

Tuesday, October 12, 2004
_root.wind_mc.onEnterFrame = function ()
{
_root.changeCounter++;

if ( _root.changeCounter >= _root.changeFrequency )
{
// speed
//floor returns the value lower than the eqn.
_root.wind_mc.windMps = Math.floor(Math.random()* _root.maxWind)+ 1;
_root.wind_mc.windMps = _root.wind_mc.windMps - _root.maxWind/2;
_root.changeCounter = 0;
}
}
SOLVE THIS.............i'm goin bOnKerS

Monday, October 11, 2004

*FootPrints*

..::Me and Darling at East Coast::..

InTense PresSure

Char quote me this...
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. Phil 4:6

Thank u Char Darling.. u are such a blessing in my life.. i love u girl.. and truly.. u are one that i will onli hold so so close in my heart.. my LesBo parTner.. =) haaaa kidding lah...

Bad bad bad.. din start off well in the morning.. sudden had a sense of insecurity in the morning.. =( i was so cooped up with the mind of not able to settle my proj that i din even care about the people around me this morning.. my whole morning was onli thinking of codes and solving my persistent problem... broke down when i sms to Vincent.. couldnt take it.. i kept my head low, praying and crying.. i just believed that my Lord is always there.. i kept trusting.. =)

Guess wad? alex walked in when i'm in a more stable mood.. i just turn my face to the other side.. there he is! alex was there lookin for me.. *scream* i mean, i'm usually the one sms-in him asking him to come over.. this time? must be Jesus who else? other people might think, it just happen.. yeah~ it 'just' happen when i prayed.. and i know Jesus is the one.. amen lah!

As u can read, intense scripting today.. din went for lunch. wasnt hungry. not that i din wan to eat.. but i did gobble alot for dinner.. 'Hello Panda' Horrible Panda i am.. hahahaaa.. =) ok not funny..

Friday, October 08, 2004
*waves*..Listening to The Lion Sleep Tonight...

Wimoweh wimoweh.. alright, my eyes are blurring awayyyyyyyyyyyyy... cant reali see wad i'm actually typing.. typo? try to figure out.. =)
Tiring day.. i;m way behind time for proj.. i need to do so much more, guess i will have to stay back and finshed up alot.. =( i know i can.. Tianfu has been reali encouaging, pingfang as well.. =) thanks! i'm so blessd. in FYP and attachment, people ard me are just so awww.. nice people.. heartwarming. haha.. i am now in lab, typing blog.. ops..

well, i know that distinction that i'm getting is chasing after me.. *grinx* i am.. and it will catch up with me.. ha.. laughx.. alrighty, i think i gotta do my scripting soon.. =) wOoHoo.. conquring time.

Wednesday, October 06, 2004
hello (O.O)"
tired.. reali.. had, tired of scripting.. kelvin is advancing in proj.. and themore i see him improve, it somehow add pressure to me.. i teared in lab.. i'm reali stuck.. and i duno who can i consult.. i'm so edgy... reali.. i hope i can have half of haleem's brain.. or from wad i heard, raymond's programming skill..

its ok, i shant go on saying.. the more i type, the more fear, the more i wanna... nah.. =) i will and i can do it~ amen. =)

I'm still thinking should i retake napfa.. the fact that i dun dare to jump. hai.. dearie print a page of 'how to improve standing board jump' i did read.. and crack a rather lame joke.. haa.. meow meow la...*ponDerx*

oh ya, i actually mass msn to alot of people to help me solve this pri4 question.. hahaaa.. yup, whole of my list.. this is funny... they are all racking their brains.. =) and yes, there are wrong ans.. *laughx*

Had a chat with my close friend in lab... AiPing.. i love her alot, but she distant from God.. hai, wad is it that to choose btw God and bf, she chose bf.. though bf is the more tangible, can sense love, the one can be seen and feel real.. but isnt God the truly one that wil never leave and forsake? she doesnt seem to understand wad i meant.. but from wad i think.. [mite be wrong] ping should lead him and herself to church, and not stray with him.. i've been through.. the periods.. dark.. done so many foolish things, done so many.. nvm, past. devil off u go! dun plant any of these thoughts in me! i know i am the righteous one in God.. *sHrugX*

People, am i being too holy? am i doin the right thing? wrong thing? why is it that when i wan to spread God's love.. i feel people outcast me? onli few people accept the way i am.. this make me scared of spreading.. but i love all of u.. =( i feel so upset.. guess onli Dearie and Charissa is still the ones that accept the way i am.. but i know for myself, i'm doin the right thing.. i am the light on a hill.. =) i am His princess.. i have what Jesus said i have. He done it all.. i love u, God.

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

The singer spun a tale of joy and triumph. The audience sat enthralled by the young woman's voice. She painted a picture more lovely than words. The senses came alive as she performed her art. The sights, sounds, colors, smells, and tastes burst forth through her song. She sang from the heart, and her story was shared by many. Emotions connected, and the entire crowd-singer and audience-moved together in a spiritual harmony. The experience was electrifying.
When we are in the presence of truth and beauty, it is undeniable. There is a cord struck within us all. That cord is the image of God in each of us. We connect with the universal rhythm that God set in time long, long ago. The result is a joy, a sensation, a feeling that defies explanation, but assures us of the reality of God. Open yourself to His truth.

Monday, October 04, 2004


my Jesus... =) amen.. He loves u!! 

Although He existed in the form of God, did not regard equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied Himself, taking the form of a bond-servant, and being made in the likeness of men. -Philippians 2:6-7

I love Jesus.. reali.. =) people may forsake me, may condemn me, may judge me for the things I commit.. But my Daddy and savior up there will not.. the Cross shown it all, it just proves it all.. and i believed it.. and i trust in His finished work. =)

and because of all these.. i know, my project is well taken care off.

RusHing

Tpday's PingFang's birthday.. can sense she's happy about everything =) though not that reali a fantastic celebration, but she seems contended.. =) and i'm glad that our efforts did make her smile.. lots of thing happen during the singing, cutting of cake, and playing game to finish the cake, i had 2 big slice. felt so guilty and yucky after that. *fRown* .. haa.. that was funny. =) oh, pingfang actually brought one mooncake for me.. aww, i felt so blessed.. seriously.. =)

*running about* meowie.. i'm rushing for proj now.. =) nah, just went to have a run. a good 6 round non stop, with darling.. =) it aint easy when running.. mind was
thinking of... scripting.. the whole day was like.. figuring figuring.. its not easy.
had alex over to help at the very last minute.. sounds bad? i was reali giving up.. =( bad.. i know.. but combine with kelvin's seem arghhhh... its ok.. i noe God wil handle..

Alrighty, time to do scripting soon.. blessed and wisdom~ i am Blessed

Saturday, October 02, 2004
If He says it, i believe it, that SETTLES it

It has been a nerve racking day.. i started the day racking my brain to get the codes done and everything.. i was thinking to myself.. should i be a programmer and face the comp the rest of my life.. well.. i think that's wholly my course about.. but to think of people like haleem, benson, raymond.. these hopes can pushed aside.. =) they're fantastic programmers. *smile*

I guess, i would prefer to be a nursery teacher or baker[anyone wanna employ me? =)].. than programmer.. there's where my interest in.. i do envy chunFei for being able to study overseas in doin wad she likes.. but no doubt.. i know my life is crafted by my Daddy up there.. so i will be in this field prospering.

Chat with sheila in lab today.. *smile* i miss her, i miss stc days.. i miss band.. we were chatting about our love lives, and it just bring smiles to me when i was chatting with her.. to think back, it was like a few weeks ago when we were still partner in sec2.. when she was still the sports captain screaming at me to run faster.. haaa.. that was funny. i'm glad that sheila is with someone she loves and doin something she loves.. =) love the way my friend found someone of their lives. =)

Did running with Darling today.. and as well.. feasting today.. He bought mooncake.. *dRooL* ya, the price drop like nobody business.. a big snow skin cheese cost $2. cheap eh? yes.. =) had supper as well.. guess i will be feeling guilty for the rest of today.. =(

Campus later!! cant wait.. visitin grandpa first than head to church.. =) Andy from SPCG called Darling.. i wan him to be engage in cg, but guess its time that God will place him there. Right place, Right Time.. =) [he's beside me now..] <*faint*