Tuesday, November 30, 2004
NOt in mood...



HM is tomoro.. and yes.. i'm not going.. reason being? couldnt come up with the money.. though eileen has well, say i could pay up later.. but 'later' i would be paying even more.. school fees.. transportation.. SCREAM why am i this such eeekky situation? Went to sleep last night thinkin of the last HM, when we prac para para in the room, with joanne, lydia and cindy.. hai.. i realy wan to attend.. but think of bee alone and no cash.. give it a miss than....



let's just not talk about it.. feeling so daRn uneasy now.. =( thinking of hitting the gym later.. running and training up my arms.. :( went to library yest to borrow baking books.. keke, philsbury and better crockers.. finally its on my hand and lyin on my table.. easy feat.. christmas is here, oven is busy... few more weeks... and will be school be reopen... will than i meet all my new friends.. pray that i will havefavour with them.. =) arghhh.. why am i still thinking of HM camp? i wanna go! i really do..

Saturday, November 27, 2004

body aching.. guess e result of sleeping more than 12 hours. *pig*


empty on wallet.. and the arghhh pay/salary will be here next well... *whack*


feeling... *shrugx* HM is coming, yet i'm not goin... =(

Thursday, November 25, 2004

Last gathering.. STEAMBOAT!

Disappointing~

*SIGH* Great Disappointment.. wad a grade for FYP.. put in so much effort, yet... not to my expectation.. well, there's onli one to conclude.. SDN really sux.. sorry to those in sdn.. but days spent in there.. is arghhh.. pressure cooker.. though people there are nice.. no doubt.. i enjoyed everyone company... all so enthu to doin proj.. did stir me in doin more and complete in time.. alright, enough.. shant dwell too much into it.. =( but seriously... my efforts.. doesnt equal to the grade i should get.. thought i would get a better grade.. well.. things arent reali the way u think it should be.. does it? SCREAM



Chun is back! keke.. *clap clap* melb friends are all coming back.. except my all time best bud will be there.. well, girl.. jai you.. i support ur decision..
wonder when is our next gathering with 5 joanerx.. aww.. missing those laughing like no one cares business...[stupid.. just receive sms from sch.. stating my results.. aint it over?] alright, gathering.. =) cant wait.. to see and chat and laugh at our old time mistakes.. =) looking at those pretty babes.. *smile*

gotta go.. later in evening.. going running.. YEAH! conquer time! no time.. wanna lose wt..

Saturday, November 20, 2004
Chiew Kueh Recipe

Searching for chiew kueh recipe.. keke, anyone know how should it be done? feeling a little 'off'... aee.. off? meaning? i also dunno.. just wan hubby to beside me, but he's havin a class gathering.. he should enjoy his times with them.. those buds of his miss him so much.. =)

Ran 8 rounds today! keke, cool weather, but hard.. wonder why i cant grasp enough air, the feeling of wanting to give up was always on my mind when i was only in my second round.. huh? wonder wad happen... was it because we ran in the afternoon? but it was such a cool afternoon.. no afternoon sun or wadsoever... *ponder*

Ate a super BIG pau in the morning.. keke, steam it, and darling and i had to cut into 2.. it is reali BIG.. no joke.. serious.. keke, auntie bought it.. cheap and nice.. wonder if its fat.. nah, forget it..

HM dates are approaching, and i guess.. i'm really givin a miss.. also duno wad to say.. the feelings.. so the so the.. nvm.. shant go on.. listening to nick lachey's song.. wonder why i feel.. alittle upset? with? i also duno.. i reali dunno.. i miss dear.. =( heard in the radio depression is anger without enthusiasm..ahaha.. sound quite true.. alrighty.. gotta pen off.. tomoro's church.. cant wait for my portion.. Thank U Jesus... i know.. all things are still under control.. =)

Love u peeps.. whoever's readin... *hugx*

(: keep smiling (:

Wednesday, November 17, 2004
Its tuesday!!! hubby is sleeping.. cant blame, working life is tired.. was working with bee today, 'Hello, i'm calling from Macromedia.. ermx, was wondering...' arghh.. had enough! *fold armx* *pout*

aww, so full of the spirit... of wanting to sleep.. =) doin the telemarketing job.. wad else, when time strike at 2, time after lunch, when the effect of dizzy ducks and stars above head... get it? *grinx* was tired, had around 200 people to call.. keke, those top notch personnel.. not bad, quite educated and polite, better than those ae... nvm, shant name out.. *bleahx*

results are coming, and... wad do i predict? hahaha! DISTINCTION yes.. not by my might and power, but JESUS! amen manx! no doubts.. and i'm sure my project mates.. like, ae.. PingFang, Wee, Jimmy, Mrs Fly, TianFu, Raymond.. all these lunch dudes.. sure bound to excel in grades.. *smile* not to mention Haleem, for sure plus chop, his Ace.. is sure grabbin in his heart..

ate so many choc stuffs today.. craving for those choclatey taste, Tronky... neglience indulgence.. =) nah, its ok.. enjoy once in a while.. ermx, alright.. i'm coaxing myself to eat more.. *cHuckLe*

k k, off to play Sims2.. figure out.. TARA

Monday, November 15, 2004
Feasting

well well well, days passed.. feeling very fullfilled... meaning? keke, eating to my heart's content everyday.. sound good eh? [think about it, food when u wake up, watch tv and every now and then] well, i felt guilty now.. feeling like those digging up my own grave.. hahaa...

alright, chuck those unhappy moment one side.. a very SALAMAT HARI RAYA to all my MALAY friends.. My Aini, Wanie, Suhaimi, Rasilah, Haleem.. hmm..who else?

Just gotten my Sims 2 game!!! exciting hor? keke, alrighty, gonna embark on this game very soon.. tomoro i will be working, and Dec will be teaching.. no rest, but doesn't matter.. think about saving and everything.. everything's worthwhile..

HM5 is coming soon.. and i guess, i'm gonna make it a miss this year.. there's just too many things i cant bring up to past... being careful with money, thinking of home, my day-to-day expenses.. school fees is one big headache.. one last sem, i believed.. its goona be my LAST BLESSED LAP of studies.. =) *smile* people, agree with me, my God does wonders.. =)

Friday, November 12, 2004
@$%^& -Spring Cleaning- &%$@^&

woOsh.. wOoSh.. bang bang.. knock knock.. sneeze sneezzzzeee.. DUST! TA-DAH! Spring Cleaning time! *gEex* din know i can chuck so many things off.. actually kept so many notices.. hahaha.. so messy. changed my bedsheet, alright.. this bedsheet... needs muscles to tackle manx.. maybe my bed.. hee... a super single.. [ yeah! cuddling night ]

Had been running after project's done.. *grinx* why? to lose weight.. yeah, its my lifelong occupation.. i guess so.. =) conquer a 10 rounds when i was so down stress with life.. *laughx* i amaze myself and Vincent as well.. 10 rounds? its a whole long 4km.. feeling so proud already.. ops..

went jogging with darling this morning as well.. mornin sun.. i becommin like ah-bu-neh-neh aready.. =( [this is the last thing i want it to happen ] *wails* well, stop whining.. did a 7 rounds.. well, hot sun.. hard to run.. serious, the sorching sun and the need to grasp air.. hot sun, the smell of the burning track.. aww.. *puke*

Mom's birthday today, and Vince and I cooking.. SpaGheTti!

We promised ourself! WE WILL LOSE WEIGHT after today hahaha! stick to our not-human-like exercise regime.. no lah, kidding.. it will be fun.. like brother lewis said.. u gotta enjoy the process.. *smile* and i guess, we would love the process.. amen!

just wan to be in my desired weight, shed off excess.. arGhh.. mooncake fault.. hahaa, ya as if.. alrighty people.. i gottaaaaaaaa go.. *hUgX*

Thursday, November 11, 2004
listening to Charlotte Church- All Love can be. song from a show... A Beautiful Mind.. good show.. had this vcd for so long, yet no time to reali understand the show.. well, after proj was a total relieve, more time for myself, Darling and so many more..

Baked a choc fudge brownie in the morning after breakfast.. *grin* yeah!!! yummilicious, just count all the calories, up with those sinful ice-cream.. *hack* was the thinking.. haha, tomoro run it off. yup, conquring yet another exercise regime with Bee, he wans to be milk bottle, and i wan to be.. *chuckle* wait till i can.. but i know i can.. =)

Christmas is coming, and the real reason the celebrate should be on our mind.. Our savoiur was born, a day the world was saved.. =) alritghy people.. i love u guys.. =) keep smiling, cux u are all worth it!!!!

Sunday, November 07, 2004
:) *Finally* (:

Listening to O Town, 'all or nothing'
+=Project's days=+ are finally over! yipee (: was just so ecstatic about everything, looking forward for this hols.. ...

could u guys just anticipate how i feel? could just jump around the house now.. aww.. the feeling of not getting to script anymore.. just leave me smiling *grin*
tianfu has being telling me, its goin to be over, goin to be over.. thank u, if u are goin to read, those jokes those encouragement, those words of faith, i know, things aint hard for me to grasp if i set my mind.. (am i making sense?) nvm.. well, his ended earlier! *fold arms* all of us gone through that.. hai, the 5 of us in sdn block... ae.. seem more agonising in there.. but, ended..

got a trailer from YQ, impressive.. couldnt hold my breath.. they are just so talented.. they are just so artistic.. they went to have sushi buffet after that, good one.. they deserves it.. (:

alrighty, people.. handed in weapon academy.. handed in my most hardwork project.. i'm happy, i'm contended.. i'm glad everything's over and everything is done and settle... (:

friends, i love u guys.. stc people, band people, my poly mates, my project group.. (:

Tuesday, November 02, 2004
3 more days!!

a little time off.. off from scripting.. done a 80+ pages of report.. wonder if its enough.. i'm bragging, and handing the draft copy tomoro.. if alex say i got to change again.. i tell u.. I QUIT *laughx* nah, 3 more day.. before i lay down my spirit and rest! yea~

.i need sleep. .i need chocolates. .i need a never ending holiday. .i need my metalplate. .i need the time-stopping-stop-watch from the simpsons. =) can i? hahaa..

weekend was a relieve, though i did scripting on sat till wee hours.. come on, lets guess.. 5am.. bam on the bed and snore right away. had been slogging, and i reali dunwan my grade to be borderLine!! no no no, i wouldnt. =)

seeing the people of my course all so free.. should i be jealous? or ae.. be blesseD? proud to actually done a game programming. but stress is inevitable in sdn.. kelvin is gonna have sleepless night soon.. he has design boards, has to do operation missions and banner.. *fWah* that's alot.. he forgot to bring his tablet, no choice, his graphics today look a bit loop sided.. as in, ae.. nvm..

i wan God to keep providing for my family.. tims's hard. i'm still praying for mum. i know.. things will work things out.. His children, will he neglect? no, he will love us dearly. Matthew 21:22 "if u ask anything in prayer, u will receive" amen, how gracious is God. No better sign of love has been shown.. That God will give us his only son, to die for us.. is it true? yes. Jesus's tomb is still there.
Yes, there are so many religion out there, why christian? cux i seen just too many things to be true. cancer cells disappear, dead womb pronouce pregnant by the power of God. has any religion has any testimonials? i duno, but i'm serving a living God, that provides, that love me no matter wad i become.. a Daddy God that always embraces and smile at me.. =) That's my God and Jesus.. =) amen.