Tuesday, September 27, 2005
hmm.. kinda bored to blog these days.. well. it might be, i have practically NOTHING to blog. being waiting for pay day. (*hee) tt's all. well, goin to visit my Grandpa later on.. din see him for 2 weeks, and he's already calling me to ask how am i.. my grandpa's sweet. he's genuine. unlike someother, who claim love me.. yet (NVM)

something very unpleasant happen to me on sunday.. not trying to be unfilial here.. but anyway. i am unfiliar to Her only.. tried to show some respect yet i dun reap back wad i sow. money is wad she ever care.. i cant believe she threaten me to spoil the relationship with Vincent. She wans some kind of reconciliation? its too late, more things u have done have already accumulated anger and hate. no use sayin goin for such stuffs, and in the end.. u threaten me. in the end.. hammer my door, in the end.. spoil relationship. i see u as a devil, i see u as someone spoiling my life.
if she ever does that. i'm out of this house. believe me.. she changed into someone i dun wan to see her at all.. the more i say, the more anger i have. i just hate coming home. (is this called.. home?) i should say, i just hate coming back to this place.. honestly.

enough said. *poof*
chargin my ipod now.. its out of battery. the batt's good. unlike my nokia batt, dead for just few days.. goin to Suntec later to change it.[ i just hope they allow that] if not, i think i'm gonna bang the door out. Suntec.. hmm, time to do some shopping! (: just window shopping.. cant spend money anyway.. see wad catches my eye. u never know.

i think the company had just done my appraisal and i'm asked to judge myself first.. *faint* i think i gave myself most of the full marks. *heh* i thought i did good. ermx, only for some saturdays, which i'm really grouchy. just dread all sat, when the crowd is damn big and not enough people.. the feeling of not getting things done really sent crazyness into me. and i practically show it infront of my colleagues. i gotta change this part..

theres alot of things trudgin my road these days.. i know my friend is concern about me.. but i duno how to face them. the more they wan to ask me, they more i shun away. i have been more hurt than loved by these so called 'bosom friends'.
and when they try to...(er) i just cant bring myself back with smiles with them. i'm not a hypocrite.
if i dun feel like seeing someone for some apparent reason, i better not see them. cux i dunwan to fake any emotions in front of them. causing any of us, embarrasment.. i have been out of their circles long enough, till i thought, i have already been forsaken by them. well long ago, i anticipated this. so i'm getting not that edgy about these. well, its ok.. i'm getting well enough in life. shant brood myself.

have too many problems. i'm a problem kid. er, i mean. i'm a problem adult. hmmm. its me, that i have a problem with. (it seems.)