Tuesday, November 08, 2005
i am sick for the couple of days already.. since last friday? i really drag myself to work though i am not in my tip top form. well, sunday is the day i cant hold on. took a half day leave and was urge by my superiors to go home.

was given 3 days rest~ woOhoO.. anyway, tues and wed are my official off days. so? no use also, i'm off during my off days. arGh. its ok.. i came back earli today~
slept awhile during the noon, till Shirley called me and claim that my P2 class got problem. shrugx, i'm drowsy after medication. nothing actually drills into me at that moment. think i kept quiet and 'ah ah' all the way. cant blame me! i'm not conscience enough to think!

wed, i'm going to cook again for darling. he actually count how many times i cooked for him since he got enlisted. well, not difficult to count also, 1 time onli. *grin.
can sense that he is really anticipating it. he had already list down the stuffs he wanted to eat~ haha..
i think food binds us together. er, food binds all of us together~ trying to save money and get stuffs, and get out of here! only darling understands my plight, and he know wad shit i went through. after all these yrs, i'm tired.. i still continue to praise Him for placing vincent into my life. no more setbacks and intruders...
darling is having guard duty today. poor thing. cant sleep, but he damn smart, change with a idiot who faked mc, and the guy who faked is takin vincent's duty instead, and that is on Friday! yeah~ sometimes, u gotta be smart in taking mc. my darling's smart! keke... i shall reward him by my cooking! (as if i cooked that well)

tomoro i'm goin to visit grandpa, though i am sick, but i dunwan to face someone at home.. wil head home straight after visiting. think i will cooked some porridge for myself and settle.. yeah~ ginger, fishy, meaty, and a wholesome stuffs... *drool

i cant seems to have the motivation to lose weight anymore, i practically have to write a note on my phone standby note to remind myself to lose weight! how bad can this be happening? back in stc, i just had the zap and click i go, diet till i satisfy kind. now? guess, the older i get, the more i wan to satisfy my stomach? but Mdm Tham claimed that its normal when students goes into working environment. faced with work stress, naturally, sweets and snacks will somehow ease the stress.. and no doubt, my work is a high stress area. my colleague can work till no time to arrange her hair. me too~ i'm beginning to hack how i look. this is bad lah! when i walked down the aisle of shopping cneter, i realise how crap i look..

its ok. i am still ivy. the one vincent loves is enough. people might think i'm childish, thinking, vincent is the whole world to me. u guys are right! i can live without anything, anybody. but i cant live without him. i'm grown more than attached to this relationship. cant wait for the family we are buiding. slowli and steady. (: dear agree?

meow meow..