Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Losing weight was my life long commitment.

realise the past tense.

Was.

well, i am still trying though. just less the effort compared to my yesteryears.
:( supper was a strict no-no. used to. now, i seem to look forward for supper.. oh manx, why did it all happen. :( i can just shift my mind into a not guilty state and wallop anything i deem delicious.. bad set thinking. i blame it on the thought of work stress..

Regina's my superior and yet i feel she's very dependent on me. she kept asking me to do things when the slightest, she doesnt do. :( she doesnt like to ans phone calls. she can order those new stuffs to ans within 5rings, and yet she cant set a good example.

oh well, i'm whining here. i am. cux i cant find anyone else to whine. i whine to Vincent, but i keep telling him the same stuffs. he's encouraging..

i heed his words. i just do my best and sure, my work's recognised. well. i believed that.

appraisal is this coming March, and i get the leak that i will be transferred out to other branches. i dunno should i laugh or cry. laugh if its a point of promotion, cry if i have to re adapt to the wierd surrounding and all. hopefully by the time i leave JE1, Regina is more stable to where things are kept and more dependent on herself. :( i still prefer JE1, the parents and students.

i fall in love with a K2 kid. Name's Delwyn. look forward to see him every Monday. he's the shortest of the 5 kids in the class and he's the only kiddo who wear specs. looks funny when he hold a packet of 200ml Magonolia milk on his tiny hands. he took 15 mins to finish that packet. it will take me only 2 mins. :) well. i love kids! and i am planning to have my first child on age 26? yes darling? when we are more than finanicial stable and all. i wan a boy boy first. :)awwwww

i have already applied a block leave in Feb and cant wait. reason being, its my birthday. well, no more of that fantastic looking forward to it.. i am more blessed when i recalled those yrs on how my birthdays was being celebrated.

In 2001, the whole class of 5J stayed back for recess and hold a birthday bash for me in class. i was ultimate touched and couldnt express my ecstacy. i still keep the card, and upon reading. i do tear too. i look those ladies. even when we gradute, i do still have birthday bashes with them. in gathering at Ms Goh's place, at Jeslyn's reunion steamboat dinner. i have the class with me again. see, blessed isnt it?
though sadly i spent my 21st, i dun dwell on it for that long. content is when i recall those happy moments.

i know many of my ex sch mates birthdays have passed and i have omitted in their 'invitation list' well. in my heart - heartful of Happy Birthday and well wishes. i do not have the guts to sms and call just to say happy birthday. u might have hold it against me.. but. well...

should give myself a bitchslap.

nah. i should be sleeping soon.

after reading my novel. :)

should brush up my english. ;)