Wednesday, June 07, 2006
i was looking at my hotmail.. its being sometime which i actually filter my mails.. the other time i logged on.. hotmail actually deactivited my mail.. *faintx* guess, i have to be very faithful to that email as well.. that mail, it has all my contacts, my receipes and stuffs..

these days, or should i say.. the past 1 yr, i have only been checking my corporate mail and neglect my hotmail. i received many mails from many people. some was from my church mates. was.. i was in their email loop. known as nypcg. -Nanyang Poly CareGroup- we used to meet every alternate Fri for caregroups. in one tutorial room. everytime i have CG with them. i feel very loved.. all of them are so real, none of them are of fake intention.. i am so easily blended into one of them. loving and caring for each other..

i am a big sinner. havent been going to church for quite some time.. to some of my friend, i am onced a strong believer in Him. now that i backslided. i have no words of defence to build myself up. i done myself wrong.. i backslided. but! i know still. that He is the man of my life. ultimately.. Jesus taught and held my hand when all has forsaken me.. i experience him before.

this entry, i'm writing alittle on Jesus's side. cux, i kinda miss him.. i received my CG leader Eileen email, circulating the song which i used to sing in church.. there was a fondness feeling. i nearly teared. the video was epicted in the show - Passion of the Christ.

i can rememeber very cleary that.... right after i watch that show, i head to Church for youth grp. we had communion on that day. the show so fresh in my head, i was holding His body and His blood which bleed for my sins. i couldnt hold my feelings. who would have died for me? there was many times, i broke down when i remember that scene. Jesus made me feel so loved, made me feel so treasured..

these are all my heartfelt words. i just keep typing and trying to recollect my feelings which i used to have.. the mustard seed which He has planted in me has not withered. but it will continue to grow. i still want my family to be build on Christ. to hear my childrens saying that they do not fear for they have Jesus.

from my bottom of my heart.

Jesus, i love U.

You take my hand, lead me to your side
Your warm embrace, sets my heart on fire
You are my shelter, God of all wonders
You are the Hero of my life

I live for You, Saviour of my life
Your love for me is wider than the sky
You are my shelter, God of all wonders
You are the Hero of my life

Chorus

You came for me, Your life for mine
When I couldn't save myself
You bore my pain, my sins my shame
Jesus My Lord My Life.

head to this site, to have a hear of the song. which i hold deeply in me still.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H6nlUw98Qhs&search=new%20creation